I love autumn! I love the cool mornings with warm afternoons. I love the smell of pumpkins and autumn leaves. I love hot cocoa on my deck while wrapped in a light blanket watching my kiddos play in the yard. I love hoodies and wraps and scarves! I love autumn!
Ok, now that my poetic run is over there is a bit going on here I should docment.
We have been back home in Clarksville now for a little over 3 months. I am so glad to be back home! I love being close to family and friends and being able to be back at my home church!
I have been working as the Assistant Manager at the studio and Jared has been excelling as a recruiter in training for the National Guard. Both of us have found jobs that we love and are very happy in... and though I know it sounds negative- somehow I should have known things were gonna tilt-a-whirl! lol
My pregnancy- week 24 1/2 now- has been the best one I have ever had. I had minimal morning sickness, minimal exhaustion, and little moodiness (unless you talk to Jared I suppose lol). With Chase, as I am sure some of you remember, I suffered from a severe hip pain on my right side. My doctor first suggested that Chase was sitting on a nerve causing the pain and eventually came to the conclusion that I must have suffered a fracture that eventually healed wrong. So, for 2 years I have been dealing with this pain and situation figuring there was nothing I could do about it. Well, when the issue still bothered me during this pregnancy I confronted my doctor again and was finally sent to physical therapy... Lo and behold the Therapist diagnosed me during our first session-dislocated pelvis! Apparently a common pregnancy condition, most women who suffer from it can only take the uncomfortableness and pain for a short period of time and are "corrected" within weeks. The therapist was so incredibly shocked with my 2 year battle she called in 3 other therapists as well. The determined there was jsut shy of a 5 in spread difference between the location of my right hip and that of my left. The equivalent of wearing a stiletto heel on only one foot for 2 years! ha! no wonder I was "complaining" so much! lol
Anyhoo- I began seeing the therapist and let me say it is soooo not fun having your entire pelvis relocated!!! But the pain in my hip has greatly subsided, temporarily though. According to her, I will continue to fluctuate between neutral and dislocated over the course of the next few months until we get everything strengthened and corrected. Boy does it hurt to fluctuate!
Upon this discovery of my pelvis' unfortunate location (must have had an outdated mapquest) the therapist also discovered that because of my 2 year stint as a crooked individual my spine is also crazy messed up - yep because Im that lucky- and could take an additional few months to correct. Worse case though, at least by this time next year I should be ok and uncrooked for good! lol
This spinal pelvic craziness has unfortunately led me to become a bit of an invalid temporarily... I am not permitted to do anything that involves pelvic movement because there is such a high risk of dislocating (and photographers have to bend, twist, lift, and chase) so I was put on desk only duty.... until the doc found my placenta previa at my ultrasound! Really? Thankfully its not a severe case so there is a really good chance it will correct before delivery- but I have had some spotting and pain and so I am not on indefinite bedrest! boooo! I have the chance for recovery- which I am holding onto with faith- but until then I cant work :(
This would not be the end of the world if it weren't for the wonderful military system! Jared's orders are temporary until the slot he is training for becomes available. Since Oct1 started the beginning of the new Army fiscal year--- all temp orders for non-permanent personnel are discontinued until the new budget is decided upon (ya, I am stuck waiting on Obama) and dished out.... meaning my husband is no longer employed as well :)
Blessing (there always is one!): Jared received his midtour bonus finally and we were able to at least pay off rent for the rest of this year until January. We took care of other little things here and there that will keep us from dishing out more each month (i.e. credit cards). So- we have also been saving up paychecks and can comfortably survive the rest of 2011 barring any unseen insanity that may pop up. This gives me time to heal up and Jared time to secure another job until the new buget is instated.
We really go back and forth alot with fortune... though there are alot of really hard times in our past that have come close to breaking us, we have a strong faith in God and He has ALWAYS got us through our flippity floppity times. I have been dealing with pain for a few years that has at least subsided some and that I now know the cause of. We have a wonderful addition going to be joining our family in a few months and we still dont know the sex on purpose!! How exciting!! We have a strong relationship and have gotten through much worse.... and what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!!!
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Monday, October 3, 2011
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Overwhelmed with Crappy Mom Syndrome
Well I am officially hard core back at work now. I have worked everyday but Sunday for the past week and I have Thursday off then nothing all next week (the studio manager is leaving on vacation now that I am back so I am running the show which means even when I am off I am on call). I thoroughly enjoy my job and it feels great to be back at work. The weird crazy part that i wasn't really thinking about ahead of time was the Crappy Mom Syndrome that comes with being back at work and having a full time job. I have crazy nights, due to my pregnancy, where I sleep very little and what sleep I do get is sparatic and light. I get up early in the morning because this crazy baby has an internal alarm clock that doesnt allow me sleep past 8 no matter how hard I try and I get ready for work. I work 9-11 hours away from my kids and then drive home tired. I walk into my house and lo and behold- it's just as trashed and insane as it was when I left and all I can do is trip over randomly placed items while I yell and scream at my children about the mess I see instead of greeting them with hugs and "I love you's" like a good mom would. We have lived here a month and frankly nothing much has been done. I am ashamed to have anyone in my house and I would rather pack up my entire family and drive out in the heat to meet up with a friend or family then have them step foot in my home. The other day I came home from grocery shopping to find that my psycho dog had torn apart 2 trash bags full of garbage that we had just set by the door so we would remember to throw them in Jared's truck to run to the dump. I, being pregnant and not of sound stomach, could not even be in the kitchen it was so bad. I had to gag my way through picking up half exposed diapers and dinner scraps. Judge me if you will because it wont make my house any cleaner nor my life any easier so it's not going to affect me, butI threw that dog out of the house and just started screaming. I yelled at the kids about how they leave messes around the house and how they don't clean up after their breakfast, I yelled to myself about how Jared should have taken the bags with him that morning instead of leaving them sitting around the house, and I yelled because I was so ashamed of my home that "I" didn't even want to be there. I have obviously seen what it is like to fail at being a house wife- or any kind of wife for that matter. My kids are always walking around on eggshells because they are sure I am about to yell at them for something. Don't get me wrong, my girls do neglect their responsibilites and show little appreciation for rules- but they are 9, 6, and 4, and don't deserve a crappy mom who cant take care of their home or properly provide for her family without having an anxiety attack or psycho break down.
I am not here blogging about my failure at the moment to get pity or pep talks- please dont think that- I just dont know how else to get this through. I can't talk to my husband about any of this because he already has to deal my outbursts and moody tantrums as it is. He should get a medal for putting up with this crap I have been dishing out lately.
Needless to say I am overwhelmed.... with crappy mom syndrome. I am kinda stuck dealing with it, but I just can't seem to find a way around the freak outs and the stress... God grant me serenity, peace, and let me be anxious for nothing.
I am not here blogging about my failure at the moment to get pity or pep talks- please dont think that- I just dont know how else to get this through. I can't talk to my husband about any of this because he already has to deal my outbursts and moody tantrums as it is. He should get a medal for putting up with this crap I have been dishing out lately.
Needless to say I am overwhelmed.... with crappy mom syndrome. I am kinda stuck dealing with it, but I just can't seem to find a way around the freak outs and the stress... God grant me serenity, peace, and let me be anxious for nothing.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
BIG secret!!!
Just thought I would go ahead and post it since we have officially told all our family... We are going to have our last baby! I am due in January so this little one will be almost exactly 2 years younger than Chase which is exactly how we wanted it! We are so excited but in some ways it is sort of bitter sweet for me knowing this will be our last one. I know alot of people in this world, even my close friends and family, think having a large family is insane and, well to some, its irresponsible and stupid. I, however, have always known I would be a Mommy to many and there is nothing that makes me happier than being a Mommy! Jared and I have pretty much said we wanted 5 from the beginning and we didnt want them so spaced out that they couldnt get relate to one another and we both decided a few months ago it was time.
I try so hard not to let the criticism and reaction of people bother me when we say we are pregnant each time. To many I can tell that it's pretty much expected we are just going to be pregnant every year-- "that's just Jared and Jessica, they are ALWAYS having another baby" kinds thing... and we are about to have 5 kids in only 7 years of marriage but here is the kicker... GOD decided this path for me just as much as Jared and I decided it for ourselves. We always pray and discuss the matter before we even think about trying to have another baby. As luck (or sever misbehavior as a teenager if you wanna be glass half empty lol) would have it I started having kids young and so I am able to say I will have all my kids (5 of them) before I turn 25 years old. This to me gives me an advantage over waiting (not that there is ANYTHING wrong with being older and I certainly will encourage maturity for my children before they have kids) until I was older to start my family. I have so many things I want to do in my life and in 5 years, all my kiddos will be in school and I will be 29 and in college about to finish my degree (if I havent completed it by then which God willing I will) and I can start my career without worrying about trying to plan having kids around that. You might see me a selfish or even ridiculous, or just think Jared and I have never seen a Trojan commercial lol, but really, we were meant to be parents and I could not ask God for a better occupation, blessing, or purpose in my life than to be a Mommy!
Sorry for the crazy weird rant in the middle, just have had a lot of unenthused people with "rolling their eyes and exclaiming AGAIN?!" reactions and it does hurt when I feel like others arent as excited as me just because I already have a few kiddos. Every life brought into this world is another life that can be lived for the Lord and having 4 kids already in no way belittles this baby to us or to the Lord in any way! I am just as excited as when I found out I was pregnant with Ciara, Cadince, and Chase and when I adopted Cecilia!
Week 9 Report: So far there has been a wonderous heap of nausea and heartburn in my life lol. That's how I knew I must be pregnant last month. I had had 2 full weeks of straight heart burn everyday no matter what I ate or drank. I stopped drinking soda and eating anything spicy and practically ate a whole box of Tums in 2 weeks time with no change! This baby wears me out too. I feel crazy lethargic all the time and when I am ready to eat I have to eat right away or I start to feel very ill and then can't eat at all. I practically live off of water and animal crackers right now! My first OB appt is tomorrow June 17th. That's when we will hear the heartbeat and get all my routine bloodwork and such done. Right now it looks like my due date is January 16, 2012. We have discussed our sex preference and have both decided we don't have one. While we would love another boy so Chase can have a brother to play with, we will be just as excited to have another little princess in our lives. Of course this baby will be another "C" baby. If we have a girl she will be Corralee Patience and if we have a boy his name will be Chanton Frederick!
I try so hard not to let the criticism and reaction of people bother me when we say we are pregnant each time. To many I can tell that it's pretty much expected we are just going to be pregnant every year-- "that's just Jared and Jessica, they are ALWAYS having another baby" kinds thing... and we are about to have 5 kids in only 7 years of marriage but here is the kicker... GOD decided this path for me just as much as Jared and I decided it for ourselves. We always pray and discuss the matter before we even think about trying to have another baby. As luck (or sever misbehavior as a teenager if you wanna be glass half empty lol) would have it I started having kids young and so I am able to say I will have all my kids (5 of them) before I turn 25 years old. This to me gives me an advantage over waiting (not that there is ANYTHING wrong with being older and I certainly will encourage maturity for my children before they have kids) until I was older to start my family. I have so many things I want to do in my life and in 5 years, all my kiddos will be in school and I will be 29 and in college about to finish my degree (if I havent completed it by then which God willing I will) and I can start my career without worrying about trying to plan having kids around that. You might see me a selfish or even ridiculous, or just think Jared and I have never seen a Trojan commercial lol, but really, we were meant to be parents and I could not ask God for a better occupation, blessing, or purpose in my life than to be a Mommy!
Sorry for the crazy weird rant in the middle, just have had a lot of unenthused people with "rolling their eyes and exclaiming AGAIN?!" reactions and it does hurt when I feel like others arent as excited as me just because I already have a few kiddos. Every life brought into this world is another life that can be lived for the Lord and having 4 kids already in no way belittles this baby to us or to the Lord in any way! I am just as excited as when I found out I was pregnant with Ciara, Cadince, and Chase and when I adopted Cecilia!
Week 9 Report: So far there has been a wonderous heap of nausea and heartburn in my life lol. That's how I knew I must be pregnant last month. I had had 2 full weeks of straight heart burn everyday no matter what I ate or drank. I stopped drinking soda and eating anything spicy and practically ate a whole box of Tums in 2 weeks time with no change! This baby wears me out too. I feel crazy lethargic all the time and when I am ready to eat I have to eat right away or I start to feel very ill and then can't eat at all. I practically live off of water and animal crackers right now! My first OB appt is tomorrow June 17th. That's when we will hear the heartbeat and get all my routine bloodwork and such done. Right now it looks like my due date is January 16, 2012. We have discussed our sex preference and have both decided we don't have one. While we would love another boy so Chase can have a brother to play with, we will be just as excited to have another little princess in our lives. Of course this baby will be another "C" baby. If we have a girl she will be Corralee Patience and if we have a boy his name will be Chanton Frederick!
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Million months
So, I have noticed that I haven't posted in a few million months. Since my last post I have adopted a child, changed careers, been blessed (well duh!), Jared has gotten a new job (also part of the blessing thing!), my children have graduated from another year of school, and we are about to move.... AGAIN! lol
Adopted a child say what?!
Jared and I have been married nearly seven years. In those seven years there has been one very important thing that I have been wanting to do but there always seemed to be something keeping me from being able to (finances, timing, situations, etc). Well, on our 6th anniversary last year, Jared took me downtown to meet with a lawyer about being able to have me officially adopt Cecilia! We paid the man a katrillion dollars it seems, signed enough papers to buy a house, and played the army game of hurry up and wait. Well, 6 months later, on March 1st, we had our court date and all of the paparework and legal mess was finalized. Cecilia is my daughter!!! Now, before all this adoption stuff, you would of ended up pretty brusied and sore if you had tried to tell me she wasn't my little girl. I may not have been the one to bring her into this world, but I am the only one who loves her like a mother does, I am the one who potty trained her, was there when she lost her first tooth, taught her to read and write, cried when she left for church camp the first summer I was away from her for a week, taught her to swim, kissed her goodnight every night for 7 years, and will be the one crying the day she leaves my home. She is as much my child as the girls and Chase are and there had never been a difference in my mind or in my heart.... the only difference there is now is that it's all legalized on paper and NO ONE can EVER take her away from me! She stood infront of that judge and touched my heart so deep when she said I was her Mama and she was happy that I could finally adopt her and be with her forever! Cecilia one day you will read this and I just want to make sure you know-- I feel EXACTLY the same way!
I haven't officially changed careers, just fyi :) I went from being a regular associate at the Portrait Studio, to running my own studio, to stepping down for awhile to be the one at home because of Jared's new amazing amesome spectacular job, to getting everything ready to move out of our new town to head back home and go back to my roots! lol! What a jumble.
Jared's new job is in Clarksville so it just makes sense to get back there! He got the call about 2 months ago to take up a job as a full time National Guard recruiter!! They're gonna send him to school in the next few months and then he will fill the slot of a leaving recruiter so we want to be settled in back home before he starts up as full time because the fall months are the busiest!
Cecilia is now officially a 4th grader (geez how the heck did that happen?!). Ciara just graduated from Kindergarten and is now a 1st grader (Lord help us all!). Cadince finished up Preschool top of her class, and she is more than ready to be a Kindergartener next year! My tiny little Bug is about to be in KINDERGARTEN!!!! Now I am shaking in my skin! I am so not ready for my kiddos to be growing up but then again what can I do about it?! haha! Just gotta be thankful for the time I have with them and hope and pray I have taught them all they need as they grow.
Well I'm gonna wrap this up. Seeing as how most of the people I try to keep blog tagging with have closed me up from their blogs and since I have been so lazy blogging this probably won't be read by many but I need to keep up with this thing for records purposes! lol!
Oh, and P.S..... We got another big secret too but its a work in progress so we will reveal it when the time comes!
Adopted a child say what?!
Jared and I have been married nearly seven years. In those seven years there has been one very important thing that I have been wanting to do but there always seemed to be something keeping me from being able to (finances, timing, situations, etc). Well, on our 6th anniversary last year, Jared took me downtown to meet with a lawyer about being able to have me officially adopt Cecilia! We paid the man a katrillion dollars it seems, signed enough papers to buy a house, and played the army game of hurry up and wait. Well, 6 months later, on March 1st, we had our court date and all of the paparework and legal mess was finalized. Cecilia is my daughter!!! Now, before all this adoption stuff, you would of ended up pretty brusied and sore if you had tried to tell me she wasn't my little girl. I may not have been the one to bring her into this world, but I am the only one who loves her like a mother does, I am the one who potty trained her, was there when she lost her first tooth, taught her to read and write, cried when she left for church camp the first summer I was away from her for a week, taught her to swim, kissed her goodnight every night for 7 years, and will be the one crying the day she leaves my home. She is as much my child as the girls and Chase are and there had never been a difference in my mind or in my heart.... the only difference there is now is that it's all legalized on paper and NO ONE can EVER take her away from me! She stood infront of that judge and touched my heart so deep when she said I was her Mama and she was happy that I could finally adopt her and be with her forever! Cecilia one day you will read this and I just want to make sure you know-- I feel EXACTLY the same way!
I haven't officially changed careers, just fyi :) I went from being a regular associate at the Portrait Studio, to running my own studio, to stepping down for awhile to be the one at home because of Jared's new amazing amesome spectacular job, to getting everything ready to move out of our new town to head back home and go back to my roots! lol! What a jumble.
Jared's new job is in Clarksville so it just makes sense to get back there! He got the call about 2 months ago to take up a job as a full time National Guard recruiter!! They're gonna send him to school in the next few months and then he will fill the slot of a leaving recruiter so we want to be settled in back home before he starts up as full time because the fall months are the busiest!
Cecilia is now officially a 4th grader (geez how the heck did that happen?!). Ciara just graduated from Kindergarten and is now a 1st grader (Lord help us all!). Cadince finished up Preschool top of her class, and she is more than ready to be a Kindergartener next year! My tiny little Bug is about to be in KINDERGARTEN!!!! Now I am shaking in my skin! I am so not ready for my kiddos to be growing up but then again what can I do about it?! haha! Just gotta be thankful for the time I have with them and hope and pray I have taught them all they need as they grow.
Well I'm gonna wrap this up. Seeing as how most of the people I try to keep blog tagging with have closed me up from their blogs and since I have been so lazy blogging this probably won't be read by many but I need to keep up with this thing for records purposes! lol!
Oh, and P.S..... We got another big secret too but its a work in progress so we will reveal it when the time comes!
Sunday, November 7, 2010
So its been a Month and...
Mostly things havent changed.
Jared still hasnt found that job that the Lord has planned for him-- we are working on it. He did a few days of training this past week and completed them and passed so he is officially certified to do military funerals. This is quite a honor for him- he feels that way and I feel that way- because each of the fallen no matter how they passed served for our military and deserve these respectful funerals and to be able to participate in expressing that honor to their family is just an experience you can't get from anything else. He may/will have many a day that he has to fight back tears even though he claims he will never cry because he has no emotion- lol! He may be called to work a funeral on holidays, in the snow, in the rain, and on our anniversary.... but when my dad goes, when my mom goes, or when jared goes-- they deserve the honor of such a ceremony. Anyway- obviously I am very proud of him for doing this and the benefit will be a few days a week of work so that helps the pocket book. lol!
I am ABSOLUTELY loving my job. It has its moments- ups and downs- and there are some times when my love for kids can be tested a bit (smile) but its busy work and delightful work. Last week I had a little baby roll over for the first time ever in my room while we were doing a photo shoot-- her Mommy was so thrilled and LOVED the pictures I did to commemorate the moment! You dont get the opportunity to share in those moments with people in many other jobs! I am very much hoping to stay on after seasonal and one day get my own studio- it is definitely something I can see myself doing for a long time and loving. I just enjoy people and kids and photography and I feel so blessed to be able to get this opportunity to learn from great teachers and have a fun time doing it!
The kids are doing well in school. They have all been cycling through the colds already this season as the temps here have varied from 35 degrees to 70 somedays. I am hoping they get over them soon. We just got pictures done at the studio of them and I will hopefully get them on here soon for everyone to see. Dont worry family members- you will be getting pictures! lol!
Chase is so active these days. He pulls up on everything and tries to take a step and then laughs at himself and falls onhis butt...or face...or straight back on his head! lol! Its so cute to watch him. He eats so well- and loves all kinds of foods. His favorites include bread and honey butter, pancakes, OATMEAL!!!!!, fruits of all kinds, and rice and green beans together. He recognizes certain words like "eat", "drink", and "mama time"--- which means nursing before bed. I cant believe how much he grows everyday. He does the ADORABLE thing where he "stretches"! He holds his hands infront of him and then lifts them up above his head and stretches until we say "streeeetttcccchhhh"! Then he laughs and claps for himself. hahahahahaha. He is so cute!
Jared is gone at WLC for the next few weeks. Once again, I am so proud of him for making the list. Its not very often the guard sends it soldiers to WLC so to be chosen is a big deal around here. He is doing so well and he is hoping to graduate distinguished honor grad like he did from AIT! I know he can do it, he loves the leadership stuff and really enjoys being incharge and such so he will do great.
Thats about that for now. Tried to keep any yucky depressing news out of here because really why do I want to look back at that? lol!
Pics soon!
Jared still hasnt found that job that the Lord has planned for him-- we are working on it. He did a few days of training this past week and completed them and passed so he is officially certified to do military funerals. This is quite a honor for him- he feels that way and I feel that way- because each of the fallen no matter how they passed served for our military and deserve these respectful funerals and to be able to participate in expressing that honor to their family is just an experience you can't get from anything else. He may/will have many a day that he has to fight back tears even though he claims he will never cry because he has no emotion- lol! He may be called to work a funeral on holidays, in the snow, in the rain, and on our anniversary.... but when my dad goes, when my mom goes, or when jared goes-- they deserve the honor of such a ceremony. Anyway- obviously I am very proud of him for doing this and the benefit will be a few days a week of work so that helps the pocket book. lol!
I am ABSOLUTELY loving my job. It has its moments- ups and downs- and there are some times when my love for kids can be tested a bit (smile) but its busy work and delightful work. Last week I had a little baby roll over for the first time ever in my room while we were doing a photo shoot-- her Mommy was so thrilled and LOVED the pictures I did to commemorate the moment! You dont get the opportunity to share in those moments with people in many other jobs! I am very much hoping to stay on after seasonal and one day get my own studio- it is definitely something I can see myself doing for a long time and loving. I just enjoy people and kids and photography and I feel so blessed to be able to get this opportunity to learn from great teachers and have a fun time doing it!
The kids are doing well in school. They have all been cycling through the colds already this season as the temps here have varied from 35 degrees to 70 somedays. I am hoping they get over them soon. We just got pictures done at the studio of them and I will hopefully get them on here soon for everyone to see. Dont worry family members- you will be getting pictures! lol!
Chase is so active these days. He pulls up on everything and tries to take a step and then laughs at himself and falls onhis butt...or face...or straight back on his head! lol! Its so cute to watch him. He eats so well- and loves all kinds of foods. His favorites include bread and honey butter, pancakes, OATMEAL!!!!!, fruits of all kinds, and rice and green beans together. He recognizes certain words like "eat", "drink", and "mama time"--- which means nursing before bed. I cant believe how much he grows everyday. He does the ADORABLE thing where he "stretches"! He holds his hands infront of him and then lifts them up above his head and stretches until we say "streeeetttcccchhhh"! Then he laughs and claps for himself. hahahahahaha. He is so cute!
Jared is gone at WLC for the next few weeks. Once again, I am so proud of him for making the list. Its not very often the guard sends it soldiers to WLC so to be chosen is a big deal around here. He is doing so well and he is hoping to graduate distinguished honor grad like he did from AIT! I know he can do it, he loves the leadership stuff and really enjoys being incharge and such so he will do great.
Thats about that for now. Tried to keep any yucky depressing news out of here because really why do I want to look back at that? lol!
Pics soon!
Monday, October 11, 2010
Friends, Marshmallows, and Opportunities
Well, some days are hard and others are harder... and then there are days (well in this case a whole week) where things really seem to be quite wonderful!
It all started Friday of last week when I finally got off my butt and went to Military Wives Bible Study-- a growth group I have been meaning to go to for like a year now! lol! It was just such an overwhelmingly wonderful experience. I was able to fellowship with some wonderful women who just touched my heart in so many ways. Women who could relate to what we are going through and women who might not be able to but offered wonderful advice and comfort. I was able to get out of the house and just take it easy for awhile without all the kiddos. it got my mind off of the unemployment we are dealing with and the insanity of everyday struggles we are beginning to face. For a day, life didnt feel like it just sucked!
Then, Saturday, I woke up well rested and made a big breakfast for everyone and started the day off much happier and calmer than other mornings. I felt rejuvenated and all in all like a different person.
That evening I was totally blessed to be given the opportunity to attend a baby shower of a woman who I am hoping will become a dear friend, but who I had only met once and hadnt seen in almost a year. We are mostly blog friends (see isnt blogging great) and our husbands have been friends for almost 15 years! I REALLY enjoyed myself and once again I was surrounded by some pretty wonderful women all of whom were very kind and fun to be around. I even made a new friend with whom I plan to have many fun play dates :)!
Sunday I had church and it was a great service. Pastor Tracy talked about temptation and how we all have a marshmallow (I cant figure out how to add the video to this blog so I will post it in the next one in just a second) in our lives that tempts us. He asked us to think about what our marshmallow is (again, watching the video will make this make more sense). I thought about it alot and I determined that my marshmallow is my faith right now in the sense that I can give up. My problem, my worry and fear, are right infront of me and I can explode and crash and burn and take them how they are right now--- with a weak faith, or I can wait and see what the Lord has planned for me and my family and not only end up with a better deal but also help strengthen my faith and build on my relationship with my Heavenly Father. While the first one seems much easier some days, just fall and bury myself in bitterness and defeat, obviously the second option, waiting for a bigger reward, is the better option. So, what is your marshmallow?
This weekend I also just found out that my sister and bestest best friend in the whole world is coming home for good by the end of the month! Words can not describe how amazing this is and how much it means to me. With everything going the way it has lately we both really need each other in a closer proximity and need good friends to help us through. Please pray that everything goes well and she gets back safely.
I suppose the second most exciting thing that happened was today's accomplishment... I got a job!!! YAY!! And not just any job, but one that I have been wanting for years. I start tomorrow at the Sears Portrait Studio in the mall as a photographer in training. It is a seasonal job right now- and I have been informed to expect to have no life starting now because after this weekend I will not have another weekend off until January! Photo studios are crazy during the holiday season so I should get plenty of experience and ALOT of hours. With Jared not knowing when or even if he is going to get a job, we have been so scared that we wont be able to meet out bill requirements after this month just off of his unemployment (we set aside as much as possible this last month of paychecks so starting this month when we werent making anymore we could still cover our bills and necessities but starting November we were gonna be REALLY struggling). This is such an awesome opportunity and a blessing for us and especially for me because it has long been a passion of mine to learn more about photography. My sister in law and brother in law are All Star photographers and I have admireed their work for awhile, but have never had the money to take any classes. Now I will get them for free and get tons of hands on everyday experience. Please pray that I handle the stress of the job well and that the Lord help me reach my full potential and then some in this environment. My biggest fear now is being away from my son. He is in that learning phase where he learns to talk and walk and eat big boy foods and I am so scared to miss it. But, I know that this is what is best for us all right now and I am VERY blessed to have my parents and soon my sister here to watchthe kids so I dont have to worry about my kids being safe with strangers.
Well, that is a heck of alot of stuff for just one week but what a great week it was. Please continue to pray that Jared find a job soon. He has applied for a position on post here that he is actually qualified for with experience and such and it would mean that we dont have to leave our family here and I can keep my job too.... fingers crossed and prayers a flyin.
Until next time...
It all started Friday of last week when I finally got off my butt and went to Military Wives Bible Study-- a growth group I have been meaning to go to for like a year now! lol! It was just such an overwhelmingly wonderful experience. I was able to fellowship with some wonderful women who just touched my heart in so many ways. Women who could relate to what we are going through and women who might not be able to but offered wonderful advice and comfort. I was able to get out of the house and just take it easy for awhile without all the kiddos. it got my mind off of the unemployment we are dealing with and the insanity of everyday struggles we are beginning to face. For a day, life didnt feel like it just sucked!
Then, Saturday, I woke up well rested and made a big breakfast for everyone and started the day off much happier and calmer than other mornings. I felt rejuvenated and all in all like a different person.
That evening I was totally blessed to be given the opportunity to attend a baby shower of a woman who I am hoping will become a dear friend, but who I had only met once and hadnt seen in almost a year. We are mostly blog friends (see isnt blogging great) and our husbands have been friends for almost 15 years! I REALLY enjoyed myself and once again I was surrounded by some pretty wonderful women all of whom were very kind and fun to be around. I even made a new friend with whom I plan to have many fun play dates :)!
Sunday I had church and it was a great service. Pastor Tracy talked about temptation and how we all have a marshmallow (I cant figure out how to add the video to this blog so I will post it in the next one in just a second) in our lives that tempts us. He asked us to think about what our marshmallow is (again, watching the video will make this make more sense). I thought about it alot and I determined that my marshmallow is my faith right now in the sense that I can give up. My problem, my worry and fear, are right infront of me and I can explode and crash and burn and take them how they are right now--- with a weak faith, or I can wait and see what the Lord has planned for me and my family and not only end up with a better deal but also help strengthen my faith and build on my relationship with my Heavenly Father. While the first one seems much easier some days, just fall and bury myself in bitterness and defeat, obviously the second option, waiting for a bigger reward, is the better option. So, what is your marshmallow?
This weekend I also just found out that my sister and bestest best friend in the whole world is coming home for good by the end of the month! Words can not describe how amazing this is and how much it means to me. With everything going the way it has lately we both really need each other in a closer proximity and need good friends to help us through. Please pray that everything goes well and she gets back safely.
I suppose the second most exciting thing that happened was today's accomplishment... I got a job!!! YAY!! And not just any job, but one that I have been wanting for years. I start tomorrow at the Sears Portrait Studio in the mall as a photographer in training. It is a seasonal job right now- and I have been informed to expect to have no life starting now because after this weekend I will not have another weekend off until January! Photo studios are crazy during the holiday season so I should get plenty of experience and ALOT of hours. With Jared not knowing when or even if he is going to get a job, we have been so scared that we wont be able to meet out bill requirements after this month just off of his unemployment (we set aside as much as possible this last month of paychecks so starting this month when we werent making anymore we could still cover our bills and necessities but starting November we were gonna be REALLY struggling). This is such an awesome opportunity and a blessing for us and especially for me because it has long been a passion of mine to learn more about photography. My sister in law and brother in law are All Star photographers and I have admireed their work for awhile, but have never had the money to take any classes. Now I will get them for free and get tons of hands on everyday experience. Please pray that I handle the stress of the job well and that the Lord help me reach my full potential and then some in this environment. My biggest fear now is being away from my son. He is in that learning phase where he learns to talk and walk and eat big boy foods and I am so scared to miss it. But, I know that this is what is best for us all right now and I am VERY blessed to have my parents and soon my sister here to watchthe kids so I dont have to worry about my kids being safe with strangers.
Well, that is a heck of alot of stuff for just one week but what a great week it was. Please continue to pray that Jared find a job soon. He has applied for a position on post here that he is actually qualified for with experience and such and it would mean that we dont have to leave our family here and I can keep my job too.... fingers crossed and prayers a flyin.
Until next time...
Monday, September 20, 2010
Still No Pictures
Wow. I am officially blog-grounded I think. I have posted sparingly and insufficiently these past few months and added like 3 pictures total! To quote the typical teenager these days "OMG!"
Sorry!!!! lol
And still, I post without ANY pictures to post. Well, not that I dont have any to post, just that I havent gotten them on the computer yet.... mostly bc I am lazy, but also bc I cant find the darn memory card reader to transfer all 4000 of my pictures onto the computer. Lame.
Well, Cadince just turned 4 last week. FOUR!!! How did that happen?! It hit me hard too. One day I turned around and my tiny little bug was 4! In case you are wondering though, she is still tiny. LOL! She has grown so much in this past year and is such an amazing big sister. It is nice to have the days while the big girls are gone at school to hang out with Cadie and Chase and watch them together. She and I do some school stuff every week for our "at-home" daycare and she is SO SMART. She catches on so fast and she really loves to learn. Chase absolutely adores her and when they play together he laughs so hard. She gets down on the ground and they crawl around together across the livingroom. Lovin it.
Ciara is loving Kindergarten and making tons of friends. She has had one minor incident (stepped on a girls foot when she cut in line at the slide) and we had a talk but other than that she has integrated quite well. Her teacher is quite lovely and I feel very blessed she feels comfortable in school and isnt scared without me.... but it kinda hurts sometimes. She doesnt even look back anymore when she gets on the bus or worry about what I am doing while she is gone. She had to stay home today because she was sick and she cried so hard because she loves Kindergarten and didnt want to miss her teacher anymore. lol. I guess I should just be glad she likes it while it lasts... pretty soon she will be faking illnesses just to stay away from school.
Cecilia has been off to a rough start in 3rd grade. Somedays she does excellent and enjoys it and other days she is so absent-minded about what she is suppose to remember to do and bring home and such. I fear she may have some ADD because she can not stay focused on anything... except art and reading. She can zone out on anything when she is reading and drawing. She had saved up money from her good grades last year and she finally bought herself a really nice art set and sketch pad. She is pretty good and Jared (my own personal artist who hides his talent but is really really good) has been teaching her some concepts and having her sketch different things different ways. I love watching her mind open up and her imaginaiton come out on paper.
Chase is 8 months old now and getting too big lol. He just moved into a big boy carseat, no longer in the infant carrier. He is a super picky eater, not with food but with WHEN he wants to eat and how much at a time. Fristrating but at least he eats... he gets like that with breastfeeding too. That one can be more painful than frustrating sometimes. lol. He is crawling (still more army crawl then hands and knees crawl) all over the place and it has become a necessity to baby proof the livingroom and surrounding areas now... and he still manages to find cords and shoe laces to chew on. He is adorable when he sits up and plays but he just doesnt like to sit up lately. He locks his knees so they stay straight and helays or crawls bu hates to sit. Boys will be stubborn boys.
Jared and I are still waiting.... waiting for a new job (his orders are up in 2 weeks), waiting to move into our own place again, and waiting for the other ball to drop so it seems. Everyday is a challenge with little to no friends around, no one to talk to, and with the thought of unemployment being our only income scaring the living daylights out of us. So, everyday I wake up I find a new blessing to dwell on. Something special the Lord has given me to help me smile that day and to keep the walls from falling down on me. Somedays all it will be is finding out that the toe I stubbed earlier that hurts like hades isnt actually broken-just painful. Thats nice. lol. But its a blessing.
I encourage any of you that actually read my ramblings to find a blessing, something besides the obvious fact that you are alive and you have a family bc thats cheating. lol. Its a challenge... and make a list of them for one week.... your list might surprise you. I am challenging my kids to do the same thing too.... a good habit I think :)
May God Bless you all and continue to bless me in all the insane and simple ways he does so everyday.
Sorry!!!! lol
And still, I post without ANY pictures to post. Well, not that I dont have any to post, just that I havent gotten them on the computer yet.... mostly bc I am lazy, but also bc I cant find the darn memory card reader to transfer all 4000 of my pictures onto the computer. Lame.
Well, Cadince just turned 4 last week. FOUR!!! How did that happen?! It hit me hard too. One day I turned around and my tiny little bug was 4! In case you are wondering though, she is still tiny. LOL! She has grown so much in this past year and is such an amazing big sister. It is nice to have the days while the big girls are gone at school to hang out with Cadie and Chase and watch them together. She and I do some school stuff every week for our "at-home" daycare and she is SO SMART. She catches on so fast and she really loves to learn. Chase absolutely adores her and when they play together he laughs so hard. She gets down on the ground and they crawl around together across the livingroom. Lovin it.
Ciara is loving Kindergarten and making tons of friends. She has had one minor incident (stepped on a girls foot when she cut in line at the slide) and we had a talk but other than that she has integrated quite well. Her teacher is quite lovely and I feel very blessed she feels comfortable in school and isnt scared without me.... but it kinda hurts sometimes. She doesnt even look back anymore when she gets on the bus or worry about what I am doing while she is gone. She had to stay home today because she was sick and she cried so hard because she loves Kindergarten and didnt want to miss her teacher anymore. lol. I guess I should just be glad she likes it while it lasts... pretty soon she will be faking illnesses just to stay away from school.
Cecilia has been off to a rough start in 3rd grade. Somedays she does excellent and enjoys it and other days she is so absent-minded about what she is suppose to remember to do and bring home and such. I fear she may have some ADD because she can not stay focused on anything... except art and reading. She can zone out on anything when she is reading and drawing. She had saved up money from her good grades last year and she finally bought herself a really nice art set and sketch pad. She is pretty good and Jared (my own personal artist who hides his talent but is really really good) has been teaching her some concepts and having her sketch different things different ways. I love watching her mind open up and her imaginaiton come out on paper.
Chase is 8 months old now and getting too big lol. He just moved into a big boy carseat, no longer in the infant carrier. He is a super picky eater, not with food but with WHEN he wants to eat and how much at a time. Fristrating but at least he eats... he gets like that with breastfeeding too. That one can be more painful than frustrating sometimes. lol. He is crawling (still more army crawl then hands and knees crawl) all over the place and it has become a necessity to baby proof the livingroom and surrounding areas now... and he still manages to find cords and shoe laces to chew on. He is adorable when he sits up and plays but he just doesnt like to sit up lately. He locks his knees so they stay straight and helays or crawls bu hates to sit. Boys will be stubborn boys.
Jared and I are still waiting.... waiting for a new job (his orders are up in 2 weeks), waiting to move into our own place again, and waiting for the other ball to drop so it seems. Everyday is a challenge with little to no friends around, no one to talk to, and with the thought of unemployment being our only income scaring the living daylights out of us. So, everyday I wake up I find a new blessing to dwell on. Something special the Lord has given me to help me smile that day and to keep the walls from falling down on me. Somedays all it will be is finding out that the toe I stubbed earlier that hurts like hades isnt actually broken-just painful. Thats nice. lol. But its a blessing.
I encourage any of you that actually read my ramblings to find a blessing, something besides the obvious fact that you are alive and you have a family bc thats cheating. lol. Its a challenge... and make a list of them for one week.... your list might surprise you. I am challenging my kids to do the same thing too.... a good habit I think :)
May God Bless you all and continue to bless me in all the insane and simple ways he does so everyday.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
I blame the Herpes!
Before I embellish let me first say that NO I do not have a STD nor does anyone in my family. lol. My computer got a virus (hence the herpes remark) and has been under the weather for 2 months before we could finally afford to get it in the shop and fixed (expensive!). I have had ti up and running for the past two weeks but about the time we got it home the internet rounter started acting up and now it is nearly impossible to keep a signal on my laptop long enough to do anything really. Mostly I jump on to pay bills and check the bank and read what I can to catch oup on everyone else but I never have the time to really post. Have no fear, I am gathering pictures and information from the past 2 months to post on as soon as we can get the internet working better and when I can have a minute to sit and post my many many make-up posts.
Quick update-- things are becoming more depressing these days around here. We are living iwth my parents to try and save up money to get a place since Jared's orders are up at the end of this month, but even though he has been applying for jobs since April at least 3-4 interviews a month all over the state of Tennessee from point to point- we have no new job in sight. This is making it hard because even though we have been putting some money aside, its not near enough to live off of and we are getting anxious to have our own home again. I desperately ask for prayers that something decent pop up soon, we arent being picky!
Ciara started Kindergarten a few weeks ago so it is just Cadie, Chase and me (and Grammy and Pappy) at home everyday so we have been working on some preschool stuff for her. We cant afford actual preschool and she didnt qualify as "needy" to get into any of the local preschool programs at the elementary schools so we are home-schooling for preschool. She is loving it and I am very proud of her accomplishments so far. Ciara is loving Kindergarten and learning lots already and I will add more to that later. Cecilia is in 3rd grade now and just got fitted fro glasses the other day so she is handling alot of changes and she is doing so very well I have to say. Chase is growing as babies do and is as spunky as the girls were. He has started army crawling all over the place and I am reminded how insane life gets when kids go through the crawling stage!! lol
Guess that's all I can do for now, kids to feed and a husband due home any moment. More to come promise.
Quick update-- things are becoming more depressing these days around here. We are living iwth my parents to try and save up money to get a place since Jared's orders are up at the end of this month, but even though he has been applying for jobs since April at least 3-4 interviews a month all over the state of Tennessee from point to point- we have no new job in sight. This is making it hard because even though we have been putting some money aside, its not near enough to live off of and we are getting anxious to have our own home again. I desperately ask for prayers that something decent pop up soon, we arent being picky!
Ciara started Kindergarten a few weeks ago so it is just Cadie, Chase and me (and Grammy and Pappy) at home everyday so we have been working on some preschool stuff for her. We cant afford actual preschool and she didnt qualify as "needy" to get into any of the local preschool programs at the elementary schools so we are home-schooling for preschool. She is loving it and I am very proud of her accomplishments so far. Ciara is loving Kindergarten and learning lots already and I will add more to that later. Cecilia is in 3rd grade now and just got fitted fro glasses the other day so she is handling alot of changes and she is doing so very well I have to say. Chase is growing as babies do and is as spunky as the girls were. He has started army crawling all over the place and I am reminded how insane life gets when kids go through the crawling stage!! lol
Guess that's all I can do for now, kids to feed and a husband due home any moment. More to come promise.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
oops, not again!
Well, here I go again, neglecting my blogging duties! gah!
Here is a quick update, pictures to come later...
Jared got promoted to E-4!! Yay! What a blessing that was! And I got to go to Smyrna for the promotion and physically promote him myself (so much fun...like proof I outranked him! lol)! We discovered that Smyrna is a BEAUTIFUL area and, since most the full time guard jobs are there, we are settling things here and planning on moving there by the end of summer!
School is over for me. YAY again! I aced my course and now I can sit back and relax for a few months, until its back to the grindstone again!
Cecilia is almost finished with school and she will be 8 on Saturday. Where did that come from??!! She is growing so fast and she is so smart... It's like I already live with a teenager!
Ciara is super excited about starting kindergarten this year and I just finished all the paperwork for her registration. Even though we plan on moving we arent 100% sure yet so I went ahead and registered her for the school Cecilia attends now, that way I am covered.
Cadince did not get into Pre-K and I am kinda bummed about that. Honestly I think all kids should be allowed to attend Pre-K but she didnt make the cut off. The slots went to kids with needs and speech problems. I guess its a blessing for us because we are very lucky that none of the kids seem to have any learning disabilities. Of course, it would have been nice to only have Chase everyday next school year! How much easier life would be! Oh well, more time with my Cadie bug... not like I am ready for her to be grown up to!
Chase.... well, did anyone know I had a BOY? What happened there? I know how to do the girl thing, and all my girls were such great babies! Not that Chase isnt the picture of perfection as well, but he is much fussier than the girls were and the strangest eater! I dont sleep at night lately because he just screams and cries unless I walk around holding him! He is picky! The girls slept through the night almost right away after they came home, Chase still wakes up once or twice a night! The girls hardly ever cried... about anything! Chase cries all day! I feel like I am dong something terribly wrong with him, like I dont feed him enough or too much or I dont give him enough attention... but truthfully I barely ever put him down anymore because he is always fussing! Thats why I havent been on lately. When I do get a free moment, I usually dont wanna have to sit at the computer for hours messing with things!
Speaking of the baby, there he goes again! lol! Gotta love motherhood! Better tend to Mr. Fussy-buckets!
Until my next brief pause....
Here is a quick update, pictures to come later...
Jared got promoted to E-4!! Yay! What a blessing that was! And I got to go to Smyrna for the promotion and physically promote him myself (so much fun...like proof I outranked him! lol)! We discovered that Smyrna is a BEAUTIFUL area and, since most the full time guard jobs are there, we are settling things here and planning on moving there by the end of summer!
School is over for me. YAY again! I aced my course and now I can sit back and relax for a few months, until its back to the grindstone again!
Cecilia is almost finished with school and she will be 8 on Saturday. Where did that come from??!! She is growing so fast and she is so smart... It's like I already live with a teenager!
Ciara is super excited about starting kindergarten this year and I just finished all the paperwork for her registration. Even though we plan on moving we arent 100% sure yet so I went ahead and registered her for the school Cecilia attends now, that way I am covered.
Cadince did not get into Pre-K and I am kinda bummed about that. Honestly I think all kids should be allowed to attend Pre-K but she didnt make the cut off. The slots went to kids with needs and speech problems. I guess its a blessing for us because we are very lucky that none of the kids seem to have any learning disabilities. Of course, it would have been nice to only have Chase everyday next school year! How much easier life would be! Oh well, more time with my Cadie bug... not like I am ready for her to be grown up to!
Chase.... well, did anyone know I had a BOY? What happened there? I know how to do the girl thing, and all my girls were such great babies! Not that Chase isnt the picture of perfection as well, but he is much fussier than the girls were and the strangest eater! I dont sleep at night lately because he just screams and cries unless I walk around holding him! He is picky! The girls slept through the night almost right away after they came home, Chase still wakes up once or twice a night! The girls hardly ever cried... about anything! Chase cries all day! I feel like I am dong something terribly wrong with him, like I dont feed him enough or too much or I dont give him enough attention... but truthfully I barely ever put him down anymore because he is always fussing! Thats why I havent been on lately. When I do get a free moment, I usually dont wanna have to sit at the computer for hours messing with things!
Speaking of the baby, there he goes again! lol! Gotta love motherhood! Better tend to Mr. Fussy-buckets!
Until my next brief pause....
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Continuation....
Ciara, my little girl, turned 5 this month! She was so cute in her princess get up! Thanks for all who came and for all the great gifts! It's so hard to believe she starts Kindergarten this year!
I got those trick candles that keep relighting! Hahaha! It was fun because all the other kids enjoyed helping her finally blow them out!
Daddy bought her pink roses for her big girl birthday present! She looked like a little Jr. Miss America!
Cecilia was baptized Sunday, April 11th on Ciara's birthday! She was baptized with her best friend Emma so it was an extra special day for her! We are just so proud, She wrote out her testimony and I read it aloud for the church. I was crying the whole time! 
The weather has been so nice lately! The temperature is up there but there is a nice cool breeze that makes being outside feel incredible! We have been out of the house at the park or wherever almost everyday!
Cecilia was baptized Sunday, April 11th on Ciara's birthday! She was baptized with her best friend Emma so it was an extra special day for her! We are just so proud, She wrote out her testimony and I read it aloud for the church. I was crying the whole time!
My sister and her fiance were here this past week for his R&R from Afghanistan. It was nice to get to meet him and we had a big family BBQ to welcome him. He spent most the time we were around just holding Chase and playing with him. We're glad to have you in the family Brian and stay safe!
The Lord knows how much I love and need my husband. Sunday, after Cecilia's baptism, Jared decided to test drive my Dad's motorcycle (an 1100- big bike) in the church parking lot. Dad had drove it there for the ceremony but wasnt feeling up to taking it back home. After a few starts that immediately stalled, Jared finally got the bike to go... and it went, right into the brick Church building. Scariest moment of my life let me tell ya! By the Grace of God he was wearing all the appropriate safety gear and was only going about 25 mph when he hit. No broken bones, don't know how he managed that one, and no surgeries needed. When the ambulance got us to the hospital we discovered that he had a nice size chunk missing from his left calf. It split open real wide and was a little more than an inch deep. 14 stitches later, Jared is in one piece and recovering just fine... to say nothing of my nerves! I don't think I have slept more than 6-8 hours total in the last 3 days. I am SOOOO blessed! The Lord really did watch out for us that day because I was there, I saw it all, and Jared should not have rolled away from it the way he did. He is lucky to be alive and in one piece and I am VERY lucky to have a wonderful merciful God who let me keep my husband.
Take stock in what you have... Love and Live like there is no tomorrow! I'm telling you, it's the scariest thing in the world to think there might not be another second with the one you love.
Guess that's my update for now. I will try to stay more up to date now :)
Super Duper Late Posts...
In the past few months alot has happened and I am very much behind on blogging about it all!! In summary, My first born (biologically speaking of course) turned 5, My oldest (overall) was baptized, my littlest girl was signed up for Pre-K this fall, my son, now 3 months old, has grown too fast already and he warms my heart everyday, and my husband nearly left this world in a crazy motorcycle accident that he is still recovering from physically and I am mentally but that also just reaffirmed my great faith in the Lord and his many blessings. I will post a bunch of pics with some addlibs.
My little man. This is a month ago at age 2 months. He looks so much like his Daddy, so handsome!
Now that the weather has gotten warmer, we have been outside much more. This was Chase's 1st day outside other than going to and from a vehicle. It was the first nice warm day we had in March.
My little man. This is a month ago at age 2 months. He looks so much like his Daddy, so handsome!
This was his first really big smile... that immediately turned into a big laugh/coo!!! Oh how precious it is when they do that!
Now that the weather has gotten warmer, we have been outside much more. This was Chase's 1st day outside other than going to and from a vehicle. It was the first nice warm day we had in March.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
First Broken Bone among the kiddos!
So.... Wednesday, the 4th, Cadince was in the middle of practicing her new acrobatic routine (she is secretly a tight rope walker) when her balance was thrown off by a sudden movement of the CHAIR she was standing on! Her tiny little body was thrust forward behind the chair and she fell down, down, down many feet (like 3 1/2) and she landed with a THUD! on the floor! (I try to tell her everytime she needs to use a safety net!) I was in bed because I sleep whenever I get the chance and Jared rushed her into me, quickly explained her terrifying feat, and moved her sleeve to show me the puffy bruised area on her collar bone. After examining it for a few moments I decided she was probably just bruised and decided to get back to my nap...I am a very involved mother! LOL A few moments later I could hear her cries from the other room. I got up to check o her and she had barely moved her arm but was obviously in a great deal of pain...to the emergency room I guess! Well, after 1 hour of Gateway's "excellent service" and being exposed to swine flu and all sorts of other ailments from the other people waiting around in the waiting room, we were called back. The doctor came in, looked at her, moved her arm around, and sent her to X-ray. For those of you mothers who have not had to experience your young child being tortured in a X-ray room, may you never have to! She was TERRIFIED! I tried desperately to hold her hand but they kept pulling her away and bending her in ways obviously causing anguish! She kept screaming and through the tears I heard "Mama, I am scared! Help me!" Let me say I have NEVER felt so helpless and so horrible in my life! My poor baby was right in front of me, calling for me, in pain and I could not help her. After the great fun in the Xray room, we were sent back to our room to wait....and wait...and wait. Well, another 3 hours went by and we were finally seen again by the doctor, all the while my little Cadie was cuddled up against me sobbing in discomfort. He told us she had a clean break in her collar bone and, yes, there is nothing we can do to fix it! He said he would give her some medicine there, but she was to take just Motrin at home, and wear a sling for 6-8 weeks! She is 3!!!! So, after all the tears we both cried during our 4 1/2 hour stay at the hospital, Cadince and I walked out to the car where Daddy and Ciara were waiting to tell them the news... My poor poor Cadince! The smallest of us all gets a big boo boo! To top it all off, our cell phones were shut off that morning so I couldn't call to cancel my doctor's appt for the 3rd time to take Cadie to the E.R.!! Crazy Crazy day!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
New family photos
So we finally went and got some family photos done. I will post others later (once I get the disk) that my sister-in-;aw took of us outside and impromptu(ish), but for now here are the sitting still looking fake ones! I have to say these are probably my favorite bunch of family shots we have had taken so far!
Cecilia has never look so grown up! Cadince, of course, was a pain in the buttocks the entire time, but we eventually got some pictures with her looking somewhat less devilish then usual! lol
That's about it for now. Need to get some sleep before work in the A.M.! Woo hoo!
Cecilia has never look so grown up! Cadince, of course, was a pain in the buttocks the entire time, but we eventually got some pictures with her looking somewhat less devilish then usual! lol
That's about it for now. Need to get some sleep before work in the A.M.! Woo hoo!
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Updates
Well....It has been awhile hasn't it.
Jared has been home since February 12th! It has been so perfect having him home...and it just keeps getting better all the time!
We moved...again! We are living in my folks house since they are out in Lost in the Woods, MO. It is really really nice to have our own space and be out of an apartment complex. No one just barges in talking about inspections, neighbors are not attached to my bedroom walls, and I don't have to park my van two buildings over if I try to park after nine o'clock at night. Plus, the jacuzzi is great! Having two acres for the kids to play on without having to constantly be right there with them worried about strange people(and we have Hermione (German Shepard) so the kids are happy) is wonderful. We have a few months to possibly a few years to make our home here and I really couldn't feel more comfortable.
Jared is job hunting, as am I, and it is proving very fruitless... with the recession going on there is so many people looking for jobs and so little job openings....it's just CRAZY hectic! We are praying things work out... Jared starts school tomorrow. The National Guard is paying him a monthly amount to help him through classes and paying for all his schooling. That is a real help, and some financial relief.
We have considered active duty army, and are still considering it... but Jared is going to try this college first thing out first and see if we can survive working and his schooling and drilling on the weekends... If we do go the active route, we want to try to negotiate for choice of duty station... and we really want to go to Germany! But, of course, there is no REALLY relying on the military! lol
Well, that's about it right now. If there is anything you need to know, or want to know that I haven't spilled here there is the possibility of CALLING someone everynow and then... (cough* ANDREA, cough*)
hehehehe
Jared has been home since February 12th! It has been so perfect having him home...and it just keeps getting better all the time!
We moved...again! We are living in my folks house since they are out in Lost in the Woods, MO. It is really really nice to have our own space and be out of an apartment complex. No one just barges in talking about inspections, neighbors are not attached to my bedroom walls, and I don't have to park my van two buildings over if I try to park after nine o'clock at night. Plus, the jacuzzi is great! Having two acres for the kids to play on without having to constantly be right there with them worried about strange people(and we have Hermione (German Shepard) so the kids are happy) is wonderful. We have a few months to possibly a few years to make our home here and I really couldn't feel more comfortable.
Jared is job hunting, as am I, and it is proving very fruitless... with the recession going on there is so many people looking for jobs and so little job openings....it's just CRAZY hectic! We are praying things work out... Jared starts school tomorrow. The National Guard is paying him a monthly amount to help him through classes and paying for all his schooling. That is a real help, and some financial relief.
We have considered active duty army, and are still considering it... but Jared is going to try this college first thing out first and see if we can survive working and his schooling and drilling on the weekends... If we do go the active route, we want to try to negotiate for choice of duty station... and we really want to go to Germany! But, of course, there is no REALLY relying on the military! lol
Well, that's about it right now. If there is anything you need to know, or want to know that I haven't spilled here there is the possibility of CALLING someone everynow and then... (cough* ANDREA, cough*)
hehehehe
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
School is on the horizon...eeck!
ok.
i changed my major!
Before you say anything like "again?!" hear me out.
I just had to.
There, that's my argument!
My new major is pre-dental hygiene and I am actually thinking this one is going last! lol
When taking Cecilia to the dentist today, I had this sudden urge to trade places with the hygienist. Since such a move would have proved extremely detrimental to Cecilia's mouth and found me lying on the floor taser-ed and seizing like a giant beetle recently sprayed with Windex (did that today!), I buried this urge and instead began to ponder the lifestyle that would come attached to such a career move.
Ok, it may seem rash to you... but let's face it it's not your career! lol
Seriously though, I feel that this is going to be one heck of a ride and I would really enjoy doing this for time and all eternity..besides, hygienist make killer money and the prospect of dentistry on the doctor level will still be there for upgrades!
So, this now means that instead of simple and passive english papers this semester and every one after that, my new schedule is full of Chemistry, Biology, and Physiology to boot!
What a headache!
As far as Jared's career move to the military, we are still in the waiting game. He has signed a contract to ship on the 28th of August, but he never swore in so he will be returning to MEPS tomorrow morning to try and change some things on his contract and swear in so it is official.
This just means I will be alone and senile during my upcoming school semester and will be found, upon my husbands arrival, to be bald, scabby faced (from scratching my own eyes out), and insane beyond medical help.
I am so excited!
There is another post in the same month.
I think this deserves massive amounts of oooh-s and ahhhh-s!
So leave your comments and I will return the favor!
i changed my major!
Before you say anything like "again?!" hear me out.
I just had to.
There, that's my argument!
My new major is pre-dental hygiene and I am actually thinking this one is going last! lol
When taking Cecilia to the dentist today, I had this sudden urge to trade places with the hygienist. Since such a move would have proved extremely detrimental to Cecilia's mouth and found me lying on the floor taser-ed and seizing like a giant beetle recently sprayed with Windex (did that today!), I buried this urge and instead began to ponder the lifestyle that would come attached to such a career move.
Ok, it may seem rash to you... but let's face it it's not your career! lol
Seriously though, I feel that this is going to be one heck of a ride and I would really enjoy doing this for time and all eternity..besides, hygienist make killer money and the prospect of dentistry on the doctor level will still be there for upgrades!
So, this now means that instead of simple and passive english papers this semester and every one after that, my new schedule is full of Chemistry, Biology, and Physiology to boot!
What a headache!
As far as Jared's career move to the military, we are still in the waiting game. He has signed a contract to ship on the 28th of August, but he never swore in so he will be returning to MEPS tomorrow morning to try and change some things on his contract and swear in so it is official.
This just means I will be alone and senile during my upcoming school semester and will be found, upon my husbands arrival, to be bald, scabby faced (from scratching my own eyes out), and insane beyond medical help.
I am so excited!
There is another post in the same month.
I think this deserves massive amounts of oooh-s and ahhhh-s!
So leave your comments and I will return the favor!
Saturday, May 31, 2008
new home
Once again we find ourselves in a new home....in the same city...in the same zip code!
We love this house, just as we have loved our past 5 homes. This new move makes 6 homes in less then four years for Jared and I.
I AM SO SICK OF MOVING!
But this beautiful jungle that we now live in is a big and wonderful blessing that we were not expecting. So, we are taking it with smiles and enjoying our new life...again
Oh, and we got a kitty. Prettiest little tabby-cat you ever did see.
her name is Princess Dandelion. Ten bucks says you can guess who named her! lol
Well, that is it for now. Busy
Besides, no one else keeps updated anymore!
We love this house, just as we have loved our past 5 homes. This new move makes 6 homes in less then four years for Jared and I.
I AM SO SICK OF MOVING!
But this beautiful jungle that we now live in is a big and wonderful blessing that we were not expecting. So, we are taking it with smiles and enjoying our new life...again
Oh, and we got a kitty. Prettiest little tabby-cat you ever did see.
her name is Princess Dandelion. Ten bucks says you can guess who named her! lol
Well, that is it for now. Busy
Besides, no one else keeps updated anymore!
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
updates here...come and get them!
So...life here is pretty much the same
Nothing much has changed
We are dealing with school as usual
The kids have been sick off and on for about 2 weeks
I am working more then I have time for
But I love it!
Jared finally has all his time from work back...no more absences against him
He might be able to pull off a transfer of jobs
He is getting tired of the position he has right now
So, how is everyone right now?
I need some feedback!
Nothing much has changed
We are dealing with school as usual
The kids have been sick off and on for about 2 weeks
I am working more then I have time for
But I love it!
Jared finally has all his time from work back...no more absences against him
He might be able to pull off a transfer of jobs
He is getting tired of the position he has right now
So, how is everyone right now?
I need some feedback!
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Because an entire person's existence relies on my words...
So.
Today I slept in.
Till 9!!!
Then I skipped classes, because my head hurt so bad I couldn't barely move...
and went back to bed!
Next week I am going to start working with a personal trainer at the university.
I really need to get back into shape, and I think having someone there to help with the motivation will make it happen alot sooner then if I am just relying on myself.
I am kinda excited about it.
School is going. No plus or minuses yet.
Just neutral feelings toward the whole endeavor.
So, there is the update.
Another post.
And evidence of my lack of life.
Enjoy you miserable person!
Enjoy!
hahaha
Today I slept in.
Till 9!!!
Then I skipped classes, because my head hurt so bad I couldn't barely move...
and went back to bed!
Next week I am going to start working with a personal trainer at the university.
I really need to get back into shape, and I think having someone there to help with the motivation will make it happen alot sooner then if I am just relying on myself.
I am kinda excited about it.
School is going. No plus or minuses yet.
Just neutral feelings toward the whole endeavor.
So, there is the update.
Another post.
And evidence of my lack of life.
Enjoy you miserable person!
Enjoy!
hahaha
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
What was and what is
So 2007 has come and gone.
We moved, as usual, that year.
This gave us the grand total of 5 moves in 3 1/2 years.
And they say our lives are nothing like those in the military! ha!
Cecilia started kindergarten. That was difficult.
I started college. Why oh why?!?!?!?
Jared finished his first year of college!
He has been at his job at the DC for 3 years now.
Ciara turned terrible two, though that year affected her evilness little to none.
Cadie turned one!!!!!!! I just can't live with that. Who said they could get bigger?!?!
Jared and I made it to 3 years...here's to many more. Again...Why oh why?!?!?! haha
So now we are in 2008.
Cecilia will finish kindergarten in a few months.
Ciara is officially potty trained, though night time diapers are still in order.
Cadince won't stop walking...into everything! lol
Jared and I will be sophomores in August.
I work at my favorite restraunt and couldn't be happier.
We will hit 4 years this year...oh mylanta! hehe
There are sure to be many more challenges this year as in the previous.
God sure knows how to keep us on our toes!
But...
Here's to life
Financial stability
Friendships
Comfort
A home for more then 12 months!
Great kids
Growing old together
Family...
and finding ourselves again this year.
Have a great '08 everyone.
Jess
We moved, as usual, that year.
This gave us the grand total of 5 moves in 3 1/2 years.
And they say our lives are nothing like those in the military! ha!
Cecilia started kindergarten. That was difficult.
I started college. Why oh why?!?!?!?
Jared finished his first year of college!
He has been at his job at the DC for 3 years now.
Ciara turned terrible two, though that year affected her evilness little to none.
Cadie turned one!!!!!!! I just can't live with that. Who said they could get bigger?!?!
Jared and I made it to 3 years...here's to many more. Again...Why oh why?!?!?! haha
So now we are in 2008.
Cecilia will finish kindergarten in a few months.
Ciara is officially potty trained, though night time diapers are still in order.
Cadince won't stop walking...into everything! lol
Jared and I will be sophomores in August.
I work at my favorite restraunt and couldn't be happier.
We will hit 4 years this year...oh mylanta! hehe
There are sure to be many more challenges this year as in the previous.
God sure knows how to keep us on our toes!
But...
Here's to life
Financial stability
Friendships
Comfort
A home for more then 12 months!
Great kids
Growing old together
Family...
and finding ourselves again this year.
Have a great '08 everyone.
Jess
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
For those I don't call everyday...: )
It's autumn and I LOVE it. This time of year seems to carry away all the stress and frustration that everyday life always brings, and replace it with an air of peace and serenity...It is absolutely my favorite time of year...and it couldn't be prettier outside!
School is almost over....for this semester, and with the change of my major and the addition of a minor, I have to be prepared for next semester and even more studying...but it will be worth it to be done early and have my degree and be happy in life. Not that we aren't happy now...but it certainly will make things easier!!! Jared is taking intro to German next year instead of Advanced Spanish...he says he wants to be well rounded...I say he doesn't want all the work! lol
I will be taking astronomy...partly because I need to take a different science, and partially because I happen to be interested in the reasonings and positions of the stars...
Thanksgiving si going to be wonderful and mellow. I only have to make the deviled eggs and stuffing...plus I am bringing the eggnog and cider this year...for dessert we are heading over to a friends house who doesn't have much family to spend the season with...so we are bringing her company and fruit crisp! That is the best way to spend the holiday, I think, and I am very excited about it.
Christmas comes all too early every year, and this year I finally feel that I have gotten a pretty good head start...Yes, Andrea...we already have yours and the girls gifts...and no, it's not a new house or a million dollars this year, unfortunately, we had to down size the gifts for once...lol The girls are sure to make out, as Mom and Dad have bought them a new playground set to replace the one that we had at the old house since we had to leave it for the owner to take back...and this one is bigger and better with 3 swings, a tetter totter, a slide, and a dual swing set thingy...very nice and we are putting in it the new backyard that has plenty of room! Who knows what else they will get this year, I am saving their shopping for last, so I can finish up our money on them!
Well, I think that is about it for now...Hope everyone is dong well and enjoys their Thanksgiving...leave lots of comments and show your love ; )
The Us-ems
School is almost over....for this semester, and with the change of my major and the addition of a minor, I have to be prepared for next semester and even more studying...but it will be worth it to be done early and have my degree and be happy in life. Not that we aren't happy now...but it certainly will make things easier!!! Jared is taking intro to German next year instead of Advanced Spanish...he says he wants to be well rounded...I say he doesn't want all the work! lol
I will be taking astronomy...partly because I need to take a different science, and partially because I happen to be interested in the reasonings and positions of the stars...
Thanksgiving si going to be wonderful and mellow. I only have to make the deviled eggs and stuffing...plus I am bringing the eggnog and cider this year...for dessert we are heading over to a friends house who doesn't have much family to spend the season with...so we are bringing her company and fruit crisp! That is the best way to spend the holiday, I think, and I am very excited about it.
Christmas comes all too early every year, and this year I finally feel that I have gotten a pretty good head start...Yes, Andrea...we already have yours and the girls gifts...and no, it's not a new house or a million dollars this year, unfortunately, we had to down size the gifts for once...lol The girls are sure to make out, as Mom and Dad have bought them a new playground set to replace the one that we had at the old house since we had to leave it for the owner to take back...and this one is bigger and better with 3 swings, a tetter totter, a slide, and a dual swing set thingy...very nice and we are putting in it the new backyard that has plenty of room! Who knows what else they will get this year, I am saving their shopping for last, so I can finish up our money on them!
Well, I think that is about it for now...Hope everyone is dong well and enjoys their Thanksgiving...leave lots of comments and show your love ; )
The Us-ems
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